Today is the 22 July 2008,

but it is the 20th of June on the lunar calender!

So.. its my chinese birthday!

With my mum out of town, dun think anyone will know today is the day

dun even think I will get to eat mian xian and hong ji dan..

oh wells, its expected and i shouldn’t feel upset

i should have gotten immune to it by now.

Happy Birthday to me

a lot of things has happened since i last posted, will try to fill them up..

i still feel i dun have friends, sadly but i think its true,

was talking to kai on msn, he’s telling me how he feels about ******

and he’s saying that * turned bad and stuff, i didn’t feel that in particular

and he said its because i dun know a lot of things,

i ask him to say and he can’t, says its secret

what to do, i guess i am really alone.

i shall stay in the round circle where i belong and

nobody can disturb nor enter.

met my dear for lunch and went to look at heels

need a pair of black heels for graduation

wanted to get the m)phosis heels which i saw yesterday,

but it was out of size alr >< and they had it yesterday still la

so in the end walk to URS and Charles & Keith,

didn’t see anything i like

so went over to BHG, and

there was this pair of black heels on discount

its a very simple design but the kind i want

and only $19.90

haha.. tempted to buy another pair of the same design but different colour..

but should i?

shopaholic strikes again

i give my hopes of getting a degree.. for now

just received rejection letter from NUS,

so in total i have 2 rejection letters from NUS and SMU and

1 acceptance letter from NTU

however lucky i am to get acceptable

i am unable to count my blessings for now as

i didn’t get any offers from the business schools.

So i need to find a full time job!!

somebody teach me how to write a resume!

my broken dreams

into a million pieces

The following post does not have any bad or racist meanings

after my facial just now, i was waiting to cross the road to get to the mrt home,

this indian man kept stepping towards me (saw it out of the corner of my eye)

then he went ‘Hi, how are you?’

zzz.. HELLO i would be fine if you didn’t try to hit on me

the problem is he is well dressed, like some office worker

and there he is trying to pick me up.. zzz

it seriously creeped me out,

i am used to those ah peks trying to pick me up but never someone who’s of another race.

and its not like i am pretty, so pls pls stop trying to hit on me and creeped me out in the process

why me?

was at my dear’s house yesterday and i realised that this blog’s link was in his address bar

omg so do you know the existence of this?

even though i always say i hope people to find out

when i realised that you might know about this

i was scared again.. super dilema ><

anyways leave a comment behind if you are reading this.

will i ever be found out?

finally i manage to buy a wallet i like!!! hehe.. can now replace my old adidas wallet

thinking back, that adidas wallet was a present for my 17th birthday and it lasted till now =)

initially i wanted to buy the other design but i realise that it does not have a coin compartment >.<

so in the end i settled for 2nd! but i like it too!!

was at the Guess shop before i met Baoling and gang,

and everyone chose the one with no coin compartment

but they all said that the one i bought is nice too

anyways, Jas bought this $160++ green colour bag that’s super duper nice

i am tempted to buy it too, just that i am broke =/

and so it happens

upon thinking

i realised that i would most probably be the only one amongst Baoling, Jasmine, Jinli, Cheryl, Xinyi to not go to university…

i would be the only one without a degree to my name

sure sucks to be me

the uneducated

i wonder if any of the people i call friends consider me as one?

maybe they will wanna scold or hit me when they see this post

or rather, i wish they would

but i don’t think they will cos they won’t even see this

i am not someone who can keep in contact with people easily

thus my close friends often become just mere friends when the times we spent together gets depleted

some even becomes acquaintances,

the irony of it would be that

once we were so close and could talk about everything under the sun

yet we would become people who would just wave and say hi when we meet

i guess my passiveness can cause me to lose my friends

very often i wonder what will the situation be like if my character is not like this

i guess i just don’t dare to take the first step into re-establishing the aged old relationships

its probably due to the new people in their life and the things that happen which i no longer can relate to

and the loneliness i feel whenever they talk about things i can’t relate too

even though i appear nonchalent but

i really do have feelings

i will feel left out and lonely just like any other person

can time ever be reverse?

can the relationships ever be rebuilt?

will the situation change if i was more active?

will someone show me the ropes to being a good friend?

who can i label as

‘my friend forever’?

thanks to the stupid interns whom i have not met before

i lost my nice and big desk and got banished to a round coffee table which is small and pathetic

jaz lost her desk just like me, we are sharing the pathetic coffee table

oh, we even have to share the cabinet with fred, so now 3 person’s worth of personal belongings is in there

after typing using the coffee table for the whole day, my neck is aching

asked johnny how long we have to be on the coffee table,

he actually said we would be there for quite a while

doesn’t ‘quite a while’ = ‘the whole duration you will be working for us’ ?

haiz’

have to find new jobs now

gynn is gonna quit too cos she found a job at dog’s cafe

jaz will probably quit at the end of the month

what will happen to me?

i hate you before i met you