friends?

i wonder if any of the people i call friends consider me as one?

maybe they will wanna scold or hit me when they see this post

or rather, i wish they would

but i don’t think they will cos they won’t even see this

 

i am not someone who can keep in contact with people easily

thus my close friends often become just mere friends when the times we spent together gets depleted

some even becomes acquaintances,

the irony of it would be that

once we were so close and could talk about everything under the sun

yet we would become people who would just wave and say hi when we meet

 

i guess my passiveness can cause me to lose my friends

very often i wonder what will the situation be like if my character is not like this

i guess i just don’t dare to take the first step into re-establishing the aged old relationships

its probably due to the new people in their life and the things that happen which i no longer can relate to

and the loneliness i feel whenever they talk about things i can’t relate too

even though i appear nonchalent but

i really do have feelings

i will feel left out and lonely just like any other person

 

can time ever be reverse?

can the relationships ever be rebuilt?

will the situation change if i was more active?

will someone show me the ropes to being a good friend?

who can i label as

‘my friend forever’?

~ by changesthatoccur on April 15, 2008.